I love this.

I also love this quote..
"You only live once, and the way I live, once is enough." - Frank Sinatra

5 days. So excited I'm off the charts.

I got really inspired and went out and shot a ton of photos with a lens I'm borrowing from a friend, I love what I produced today.

Some things on my mind..

I miss you. More than you think. I'm going to miss you, more than you will ever think.
But it's okay, I think it is a good thing.

Ontario - 6 days. OMGosh. I still remember sitting in class, with a small "countdown" application on my iPod, it stated "181 days." I texted Braden "BRO!! ONLY 181 DAYS!!! WOOO!!"
Wow. 181 days sure goes by fast. It's crazy really to think about. So much has happened in 181 days, I seriously don't even remember much of it. I guess that's life though. Times flies. I guess this could relate to the saying "Time flies when you're having fun." I guess I was having fun. I still feel really in the moment currently. Living with what's happening around me, and really enjoying it. I believe this summer has been the most meaningful to me so far, and I also predict it's only going to get even better, more meaningful, and create tons more memories. I'm in love with my life right now. (I guess that sounds pretty cocky, but I mean I love my LIFE, not myself) Just the people that surround me, my inspirations. I'm living just being able to sit at home, with no plans, nothing that MUST be done, and hang out with my best friend for a "skype hangout." We had skype on for 11 hours yesterday. I bet you don't believe me. But we have pictures proving it. 11 freakin' hours. That's pretty much the entire day. That's crazy. Seriously!! We obviously did other things, I lifted weights and such a few times, we listened to music, we both took a short break or two leaving to play xbox, or talk to our families, grab something to eat etc. But it's was 11 hours. Yesterday somebody asked what I did in the day. I told them I hung out on Skype with my best friend. They replied sarcastically "That sounds fun." It kinda struck me. Probably more than it should, but really, it was fun. To have the kind of connection with somebody you have known ever since you can remember, and to the technology that allows us to connect as if we were literally right beside each other. It means a lot to me. I don't think many people will ever really understand the significance either. To be so close to somebody you have known for years, yet so far away? Everybody in life comes and goes, people move cities, countries, etc. To have such a bond with somebody, that lives on almost the opposite side of the country, is just crazy. That's more than "true friendship." It's amazing.

We went to Elbow Falls today. The water levels were really high since the last time, obviously from the constant rain and crappy weather here lately. It even rained a bit while we were there. It was still really nice, and I still got some nice photos :)

The previous two nights before last night were brutal. I did not sleep at all! But, this happens every single year. You would think I'd be used to it by now enough to be able to sleep, but nope. It's terrible. Being awake at night alone sucks. Probably one of my biggest dislikes. Usually I have my iPod which is good I can put on some Il Divo for a bit and then I can sleep again, but the past nights my iPod was dead (It's summer!) These sleep issues are caused by my sub conscience. I guess I'm nervous about flying. I don't know why. It's something inside me. In my mind, I feel fine. Honestly, I love to fly. Taking off, going 500mph on the ground is such a cool feeling to me. Being above the clouds is amazing, I love it. But for some odd reason I am nervous. I'm the worst person at worrying about things you'll ever meet. I don't know. I wish I wasn't, but I find it makes me more aware of everything. (Because again, I hate not knowing) Anyways, last night I took some medicine for it. I finally got into bed at 1am, and literally passed right now. I slept the entire time, and woke up around 8:30. I woke up, looked at the clock and was like..woah, really? I didn't wake up!! That was the best sleep ever!! (Pretty sure I had some awesome dream about seadoos lol)

Some things I really love right now//
You. Soulja Boy. Explosions in the sky. Plaid shirts. Jeans. Popsicles. Monster. Arizona. Vitamin Water. Tumblr Blogs. Late nights with lights dimmed. Art. Instrumental music.




Right now I am incredibly inspired by a photographer by the name of Jasmine Star.
She's incredible. She's a lifestyle and wedding photographer, and her husband is her business partner. Amazing. She does some AMAZING work, and her life in general is really amazing.

"The more you fail, the more you succeed"
In her documentary she says this. Really inspiring to me. Something I've never thought of, something I don't think many people think of. The more we fail, the more we succeed. I'm still not entirely sure of this concept, but it's an intriguing idea to me. Failing, it can mean so many different things. I feel one thing is common however, and that is that failure is something we sometimes may fear, and definitely not something we want. But failing, allowing us to succeed? I've never looked at it this way before. To me, I take this as failing, something we surely try to stay as far away from as possible, actually may not be such a bad thing. Perhaps failing is good. Not good in the sense that we have failed at something. But good from the perspective that now that we have failed, we perhaps have learned, and from this experience, we have opportunity to try again. We can always try again. No matter what it is at, no matter when, or how. We can always try again. So perhaps failing the first time only prepares us and sets us up for future success? What if we come across a situation that we have failed before in the past multiple times. Let's say we fail the first time around. The second time around we succeed, but what if the third time around the same thing occurs. Do we fail or do we succeed? I think we succeed. Success is huge to me. I think it's my number one goal in life, succeeding as what I want to do and what I want to be.

Just something that I wanted to get out right after watching her short documentary :)



So. I don't know what to write. I just want to write.
Today has been crazy. I don't even know what to do. I really don't want to see something so amazing be gone. I couldn't handle it. I wouldn't know what to do. So many events that have meant so much to me, and have brought new emotions with them, emotions I haven't felt before. Emotions that I can't control. It's crazy. Being a teenager sucks. Nothing ever seems to really go the way it should, and everything seems like it's going to be the end of the world. I guess everything is an experience. We learn from such experiences, each differently, and we can take what we want from it.
This blog is sounding depressing. There's just a lot on my mind. I don't even know everything that's on my mind, nor do I fully understand what I do know. But I know one thing for sure, life is life. We live it. We breath. We do. Everything is for enjoyment. We get an education so we can get a good career, and we work in order to have fun. That's what life is. Fun. I guess we each have a certain role in life, and definitely specific goals we want to accomplish.

10 more days (Counting Saturday. I never count the day we're in though, because it'll be over just as fast as it began.) 10 days until I can step away from everything, perhaps it will even help me understand it all. This is probably going to look so obvious because of recent blogs and the order this is coming in. It's not what you think though. I guarantee I am making it sound far worse than what's really goin' down. But it's still something happening in my life right now, something that is on my mind, and something I just wanted to get down in words. I have no idea. All I know for sure is in 10 days, I will be soaring above the clouds...



Sometimes the most insignificant things in my life bother me the most. I need to learn to not take things so seriously. Well, normally I am like that. But when it comes to this, I'm not always so easy going. Maybe it's caused from events in the past. Maybe it's subconscious. I don't know what it is, but I'm sorry. < 3


Wow. So, life's good. I think I've just been really in a "live the moment" mood lately. Taking everything as it comes. I'm CRAZY super super super excited to go back to Cambridge soon!! 13 days. Honestly, I still remember countin' down last semester from 180 days. Wow. Time goes by FAST. I can't believe it. I can't believe a lot of things right now. Mainly how fast time goes, and how soon I will be sitting with honestly the only friend that I feel so close enough as to call him a brother. It means a lot to me, and I just can't wait to sit back, and have an amazing summer with my bro. Hangin out, doin the stuff we do, and laughing non stop and the millions of inside jokes we have that honestly nobody would ever understand. Oh I can't wait.

Things are good. I'm really happy with where I am right now, and where I'm going. Where WE are. Where WE are going ;)

Yesterday sucked, a lot. I was down south cause I slept at a friend house there. We got up and decided to drive to the north, hang out, grab some dinner, go pick up Abbey, and then drive down to Stampede for a late evening out. I was pretty excited, it was going to be fun!
Well, as we're driving up from the south to get to the north, the darkest cloud I have ever seen blew in from nowhere. (And please take into consideration, I love storms, and I've seen lots of dark clouds) This cloud was PITCH BLACK. The entire city felt like it was in night mode. It wasn't raining, but the lightning was crazy, and the thunder was loud. We were driving, and we got RIGHT underneath the storm.

This picture really doesn't even do the storm justice. That little lighter cloud was moving REALLY fast circular, it really looked like a tornado was forming. Tornado's don't really happen here, well they do, but they don't touch down because they can't really get lower than the cross wind coming from the mountains that cuts them off I guess. Anyways, it was dark, and it was scary. But there was no rain. So we're waiting at the intersection in the photo above. The light goes green and we start going. Right as we get out of the intersection, a huge mist came out of nowhere and just covered the car. It was mist. It was the weirdest sound and feeling ever. It lasted literally 5 seconds, and then stopped. It was really weird. By now, we were honestly directly under the darkest part of this cloud. The lightning stopped, the thunder stopped. It was silent, eerie, and DARK. I was a little scared to be honest. We just kept driving however, trying to beat the rain and talking about how it would be better for it to rain now than later at stampede. oops. Spoke too soon. kaboom. We had no idea what the noise was. We heard it again, it honestly sounded like something from an apocalyptic movie. Like meteors crashing down. My friend driving was freaking out. "WHAT THE HELL WAS THAT?!!" "Man I don't know WTF!!"
BOOOOM!! Honestly, this hail was crazy. I've never seen hail this big before in my life!! It smashed the hood of his car, and we knew what was happening. My friend screamed "IS THAT HAIL!?" We both lean forward and watch the hood of the car. Another came crashing down, and just broke into a bunch of pieces once it hit the hood.

This is a picture somebody sent in to the weather network here. We knew we were in trouble. We both lean forward and looked up out the windshield. KABOOM. One hit right on the windshield. Just as fast as it hit, a big circular crack formed. My friend screamed "THATS A CRACK!!!" I was freaking out. I'm yelling "DRIVE GET TO THE BRIDGE!" .. It was too hard. All the dumb ass drivers decided to simply stop mid highway, instead of get to the bridge about 1km ahead. Honestly. Such idiots. We couldn't move, people were driving up the curb on the grass to get around people and get to the bridge, we couldn't get forward. We were stopped. We knew this was very bad. Then it started. It just started to come down. I've never seen such a thing. Every single piece that hit the window, smashed a huge crack in it. It looks like bullets hitting the windshield. They were coming down SO fast, SO hard and they were huge!!! We were sitting there, freaking out, both on our phones calling people to figure out what the hell to do. We couldn't even hear people on the other end the hail hitting the car was so loud. People were honking, it was a mess. It lasted about 5 minutes. We sat there for five minutes helpless and just getting pummeled. We were SO worried about the windshield actually cracking and shattering in on us. It was horrific. If a single piece of hail hit in a spot that another hit, we would have been done.

We finally got up the bridge as you can see in the picture above. But we weren't under it. Everybody else was. Such dumb asses.

After that we got home. The cars front bumper piece that comes out on the front was cracked and the corner broke off. His wiper broke off when hail hit the wiper, but I got that back on for him. The window was toast. And if you saw the car, I would say there was over 40 dent holes from the hail. It looked like he drove the car though gun fire. Brutal. Luckily his insurance should cover it. Still very scary.

So this pretty much ruined all plans however. The entire city was under a tornado watch. We couldn't go to Stampede. We just sat at home and watched movies. We watched Superbad, Step-Brothers, and the movie Gamer. Honestly, never get Gamer. It was the dumbest movie I've seen in my entire life. It seriously made absolutely NO sense. Honestly, it went from some guy fighting in a game with guns, to random half naked girls dancing around. It seriously made no sense. It was pointless, it didn't have any plot, and made no sense, again. One of the biggest wastes of money ever.

It's Tuesday now. That leaves only 13 days until I leave. Abbey leaves this weekend, but comes back next week for the week before I leave. She's getting her wisdoms out, I hope everything goes well. We'll have a week of movies :)

I have no idea where I'm going. Normally that would kill me. I must know everything, must have a plan for everything, and must always be knowing what's happening, and what's going to happen. But for once, perhaps the first time ever, I am okay with it. I am alright with not knowing. I don't even know what it is that I don't know, I just don't know. There's a lot going on right now, this summer has been absolutely one of the best. And I definitely know it's only going to get better. I can't wait until I get back on an Airplane. But again, I'm okay with being patient, because I'm enjoying it. It's been a great start to the summer, and it's going to only get better. But so far, I have had no real plans. It's been me, and somebody that means a lot to me. It has been the best. I'm okay with not knowing, not knowing where the road leads to. I have a feeling that it's going to lead to something beautifully spectacular.
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